[Video opens with soft, melancholic music. The personās face looks tired, eyes red as if they havenāt been sleeping much. They're sitting in a dimly lit room, glancing down at their phone before speaking.]
Text on screen: "I never thought I'd be sharing this, but here goes. #addiction #mentalhealth"
[The person takes a deep breath, speaking softly, voice shaky.]
"So... Iāve never talked about this before, but I think itās time I did. Iām just tired of hiding it. Iāve been struggling with something I didnāt think would get this bad... and thatās... being addicted to adult websites.
It started a few years ago, just as a casual thing, you know? Everyone talks about it, so I didnāt think much of it at first. I thought it was normal. Like, everyone does it. But... it wasnāt just that anymore. It became a habit. A routine. It started to take over everything.
Iād be in class, Iād be at work, and it was like, my mind kept going back to it. And then, at night, when everyone else was asleep, thatās when it hit the hardest. Iād end up scrolling for hours, even though I knew it was unhealthy. Iād try to stop, but the urge just... it never left. It feels like it's something I canāt control, like I canāt break free. Itās... itās been really hard. And, honestly, itās made me feel so alone.
I used to have a normal social life, I used to be able to connect with people, but now... I find it hard to even look at someone without feeling this... shame. Like Iām always carrying this secret, this dark part of myself that I donāt know how to get rid of. I tried to talk to my friends, but I canāt bring myself to tell them. What if they judge me? What if they donāt get it?
And... itās like, every time I try to stop, every time I say āIām done,ā I end up back there. Itās so exhausting. I canāt even focus on anything else anymore. My productivity has dropped, I feel drained, and itās affecting my relationships. I canāt seem to break free from it, and I hate myself for it.
But I guess Iām just... reaching out because I feel like I canāt do this on my own. If anyone else has been through something similar, I just want you to know that youāre not alone. It feels like no one talks about this kind of thing, but itās real, and it sucks. I donāt have all the answers. I donāt know how to fix it yet, but Iām trying.
So... yeah. If youāre going through something like this, just know youāre not the only one struggling with it. Itās okay to reach out for help. I guess... Iām just tired of carrying this weight alone. Thanks for listening."
[The person pauses, wipes a tear away, and forces a faint smile.]
Text on screen: "Itās okay to talk about it. #mentalhealthawareness #addictionrecovery"
[The video fades out with soft music, leaving the screen black.]
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[Video opens with soft, melancholic music. The personās face looks tired, eyes red as if they havenāt been sleeping much. They're sitting in a dimly lit room, glancing down at their phone before speaking.]
Text on screen: "I never thought I'd be sharing this, but here goes. #addiction #mentalhealth"
[The person takes a deep breath, speaking softly, voice shaky.]
"So... Iāve never talked about this before, but I think itās time I did. Iām just tired of hiding it. Iāve been struggling with something I didnāt think would get this bad... and thatās... being addicted to adult websites.
It started a few years ago, just as a casual thing, you know? Everyone talks about it, so I didnāt think much of it at first. I thought it was normal. Like, everyone does it. But... it wasnāt just that anymore. It became a habit. A routine. It started to take over everything.
Iād be in class, Iād be at work, and it was like, my mind kept going back to it. And then, at night, when everyone else was asleep, thatās when it hit the hardest. Iād end up scrolling for hours, even though I knew it was unhealthy. Iād try to stop, but the urge just... it never left. It feels like it's something I canāt control, like I canāt break free. Itās... itās been really hard. And, honestly, itās made me feel so alone.
I used to have a normal social life, I used to be able to connect with people, but now... I find it hard to even look at someone without feeling this... shame. Like Iām always carrying this secret, this dark part of myself that I donāt know how to get rid of. I tried to talk to my friends, but I canāt bring myself to tell them. What if they judge me? What if they donāt get it?
And... itās like, every time I try to stop, every time I say āIām done,ā I end up back there. Itās so exhausting. I canāt even focus on anything else anymore. My productivity has dropped, I feel drained, and itās affecting my relationships. I canāt seem to break free from it, and I hate myself for it.
But I guess Iām just... reaching out because I feel like I canāt do this on my own. If anyone else has been through something similar, I just want you to know that youāre not alone. It feels like no one talks about this kind of thing, but itās real, and it sucks. I donāt have all the answers. I donāt know how to fix it yet, but Iām trying.
So... yeah. If youāre going through something like this, just know youāre not the only one struggling with it. Itās okay to reach out for help. I guess... Iām just tired of carrying this weight alone. Thanks for listening."
[The person pauses, wipes a tear away, and forces a faint smile.]
Text on screen: "Itās okay to talk about it. #mentalhealthawareness #addictionrecovery"
[The video fades out with soft music, leaving the screen black.]